Today hab a big quarrel wif dearly... Now i still wonder am i single? Coz i said break up ytd coz i'm mad at him....So i said break up but he neber mention at all tat he agree anot... I feel tat our quarrel is very stupid...So small can turn up until so big...Maybe is both of us de attitude same de...Very hot tempered... Well the prob is he play majong at friends house den we're suppose to tok on phone at around 10. But he neber called me so i call his hp n he answered But i put it down coz i use hp call ma...=P den he called me back he told me he's still playing at friends house...N i asked him wat time he will reach home but he's like too into the game saying game haven finish den i went crazy saying BB den i put down his call... -_- Now i think of it i feel tat i'm bad... But i expect to see his sms after an hour as i off my hp den i cant sleep so turn around the bed until 11 i on my hp n i expect to see Sorry sms from him but i got nth!!!!!! Arg he's not like this in the past lo! So i smsed him telling him i angry blah blah blah...Indeed he said sorry to me but i told him its too late n watever...Den he keep calling i neber listen coz i at tat moment feel very sad...Crying...How could he did this to me lo! Majong more important fug la! Calling for sometime he gave up....around 12 plus i still cannot sleep n my temper is going down ler so i smsed him butta he neber reply me! I called him he neber pick up...So i smsed his brother wat he's actually doing...his bro reply he's sleeping....-_- At this point of time u stil can sleep? I cant even sleep! So my temper went up agian n blah blah blah i said break up coz i feel tat he's too far lo...he gib excuse saying i reply slow ya indeed i reply 30 mins later as i'm crying! IDOIT....n u fall asleep...i'm tired from sch n i cant sleep u sch holiday late wake up still can so easily fall asleep?! i feel tat u don treasuer me as be4 anymore so i said break up... n guess wat he treat me sms as nth... Neber call back neber reply me... I keep waiting till 2 plus den i fall asleep....Are u too far? to me u r! Really are! I keep sending hi tat i hate him alot! Morning expect him to gib me morning call but he didnt...Its okay... i'm tired of finding u, be the 1st one to meet ya out, tel u wat time i release from sch hoping u will come fetch me but no... Got come fetch me my hands can count how many times... Go to sch, friends asked me to join superstar but i say no as i promise dear tat i wont join anymore...N he don like me to join those kind of things...He said i got no talent asked me not to throw face...Hurts me at 1st but after wat Ct hab said i take it as he said it out of love...Coz he don wan me to get hurt to be kick out in joining the superstar.Ct say he's too over confident wif me tat i will become a star somedays n he scare he will lose me as i'm famous no time for him...Not like others friends think tat he's bad or watever... Indeed after wat Ct hab said my hart soften... Ct say ur bf told me tat if he hab his dreams n i don like it he will gib up from this i know how much he loves u n he's too confident tat i will get in superstar... After ct hab said i decide to gib up this year superstar as i'm not ready...Ct say u join when u got the confident tat u will win...But now i'm juz floating around scare tat i will lose face...Maybe my bf take this throw face thingy to make me don feel like joining... In class i n him smsed quarrel abt joining superstar thing...Stupid right? Den grow until very big coz he used dirty words on me...too harsh already..Harsh until i cried in class! So throw face...faster clear up my tears n go out of sch hoping to see him out there waiting for me to say sorry...But i was once agian Bingo i'm wrong...At bus stop he sms something more worst cursing my family all die...-_- N harsh words on me....I was once agian break down cried more in bus! Omg so throw face... After tat ct go home wif me cheer me up... She said ur bf is too love u ler den like this...Don u think its cute tat he's showing love in being angry?! I ask where got love? Ct say he say ur whole family die together shows tat he don wan u to be lonely he wans my loves one to acc me... -_- Good joke for this i finally smile...Thanks Ct... Now at home...Log in msn...He msg me scoldin me agian... asking why i was at home....Why i neber went over to his house....See from this i feel more sad why u always expect something from me now? Why not i'm the one expectingthings like the past? I really feel tat u r too far... Once agian i'm crying now...He's too far....Saying its my fault tat i smsed him late...Why don u say is u the one playing till so late? After an hr den say sorry when i asked for it! Kao! Now den u keep calling me...Is there any use now? I'm at home...If u keep calling me while i haven reach home askin me to meet ya i will but its all too late... Don expect things from me now...I tell u...I'm hart broken....Don hurt me anymore pls....
